I decided to delete the last blog. There really is no need to put something like that on here, so sorry if I offended anyone. It's just very upsetting watching someone related to you, simply tread in laziness and apathy, because I know (and my sister, and pretty much EVERYONE else who knows of the situation) know, that they can do so much better. The fact that nobody is doing anything about it because of their laundry list of denial and excuses, doesn't matter. He shouldn't have to "depend" on anyone when he is an adult -- when you are an adult, you are responsible for your own actions. Hell, even a teenager should be responsible for their own actions. I just wish SOMETHING could be done about it, and using religion as an excuse, and God as a beacon for wish-prayers (like wishing for my mother to find a rich man to take care of her... she has a job, she's on her own, she's doing fine) is silly. I don't think anyone should treat God like that, even if I'm not religious, that is not what he is there for... if anything, if you have faith, maybe the religious should be praying for a better world. One where children in other countries aren't starving, or where they have the medications available to help their needs, where education is available to them. And here, we have a teenager who refuses to eat because he doesn't care, screwing his education up by not caring nor trying, and not even taking his epilepsy medicine because people are teaching him to not trust doctors. It's so sad, and I feel so burdened by this. I don't want him to grow up to be a bum.  I don't want to see him hurting as an adult, because everyone lets him do whatever he wants, whenever he wants as a teenager. That's all. And yes, he did talk back to his gym teacher. The gym teacher told everyone to do push ups and your pride and joy REFUSED to follow along, so he made him run laps. Then you laugh and chuckle saying, wow he can run laps and jump hurdles! That's not something to be proud of... honestly, he should've just done push ups like the rest of the class. He's not dancing to the beat of his own drum, refusing to do push ups with everyone else is just plain ol' obnoxiousness. I wish I had a 2000 mile long arm so I could slap some sense into him. Lol.

Anyway. Besides feeling like total crap that all this madness is going on in my family, things have been good over here. Camilla is interacting with her toys! Yay! We went on an evening trip to the store last night to get her more toys, and she LOVES this litte rattle ball and light up touch toy. Gosh she's so adorable, we love her so much!!!! She's definitely been staring at our food when me or Josh eat, even staring at Desoto when he's chewing his bones lol, so when she hits 4 months I will probably start her on some baby foods. All the recalls on baby food lately have me a bit paranoid, ha, so I'll probably just conjure up some myself with the blender. I was eating some avocada yesterday and gave her a couple tastes... and her expressions were hilarious! She is quite the expressive baby. :)

Hmmm what else?! Josh had a 4 day weekend so we had a lot of fun just hanging out. We took our weekend trip to the mall and that's probably my favorite day of the week. Cam was in her panda leggings and the sales people in the department and movie stores cooed over her. She's such a popular little lady! Oh I suppose another new thing, I'm on the Atkins diet. It's working! It's basically no carb/no sugar the first two weeks, then you slowly add carbs and sugars later on. I lost 5lbs the first week, and I weighed myself today and lost another pound. Hopefully it keeps going like that lol. I read that the first two weeks are when it really hits you, and it'll probably slow down afterwards. It's damn hard though! Grocery shopping is challenging actually having to read and study labels. Phew. But the payout will be worth it! Josh isn't on it, so it's hard watching him eat all the good stuff! Lol. Especially at the mall.. I was like oh god droooooolllll at everything in the food court. And all the coffee places! *sigh* But I must keep trudging on!

Picture time!! (oh and I found that one baby pic of Josh that reminds me of Cam, and I saw some very cute photos of his parents back in the day... Sue, you are a hottie! Dennis is so lucky!)

Making this one quick...

It's picture time!

Blerghhhh!

Oops, I know I said I would write a blog after the last previous one but.. ehhhh. I haven't been feeling 100% the past few days, and I think I may have put more on my plate than I should've. I'm ALWAYS doing that! Oh well, I'm definitely still going to try to keep this going on... it's a lot easier to update this and chat to family in one big swoop! Plus, it's nice to have a place to look back on photos, news, etc.

It's October!!! Crap, time is going by way too fast. It's birthday month! Which means my Grandma, my Dad, and my birthday all jam packed in this month. Phew. Yay for another year older! (or not... I refuse to be 26!)

Camilla is doing super! She's taking more notice of things. Looks at whoever is talking to her, giggles, and babbles. She loves watching Desoto, whether he's just walking on by, or chewing on a toy. She gets a kick out him, and it's sooooooooooooo freeeaaaking cute how she gets all shy around Josh. She'll smile shyly and acts all coy if he says hi to her or starts a conversation with her. It's the cutest thing I've ever seen! Actually, today Desoto was chewing on a long piece of rope toy that came off of a toy, so while he had one end, I held up the other and gave it to her to hold. Well, she held it alright... then brought it to her mouth to suck on! I was like AHHHHHHH NOOOOO! I couldn't stop laughing, but I was like oh silly girl! It was just so hilarious, especially since the other end was being chewed on by Desoto! Silly little lady. So now she's bringing things to her mouth, so must be keeping Desoto's things away from her haha.  Also, she's finally in size 2 diapers.. she's still a tiny little thing and they are a bit big on her, but 1s are a bit tight now. I'll put a cloth diaper on her now and then, but I don't have enough of those filler-stuff things so, eh I guess if it saves a diaper here and there it's better than nothing lol.

Hmmm what else. Cam has a doctor appointment on the 15th (I got her switched to my clinic YAY!!!!!!!!! SOOO CONVENIENT!!!) and she turns 4 months in 6 days!!! Crazyness!! It seems like only yesterday we brought her home and I was terrified out of my mind. Things have changed a LOT since then, and I really can't say enough how lucky we are to have such an easygoing baby. Sleeps through the night and everything! I think co-sleeping has a lot to do with that, but it really does work for us! She sleeps in her rocker for part of the night but it's me that's the one that grabs her for sleeping the rest of the night... I think if anyone's going to have a tough time sleeping by herself, it's going to be ME lol.

October's going to go by fast too, I can feel it. I really have to get my ass into gear and clean this darn house top to bottom, including readying up the guest bedroom. I've got much more energy now and Cam is more occupied with other things around her (and she loves her space themed play mat!), so I'm sure I can get plenty done before my friend comes up. I can't wait for her to see Cam and see how cute and what a bubbly little personality she has. :) It's funny, she asked me 'how do you like having a mini-you?' and I said, 'Mini-me? More like mini-josh!' Hahaha, it's so cute and funny. I warned Josh, she might look like you, but she's probably going to act like her mom. So prepare yourself!!

Anyway! Josh IS staying, no school for him this fall/winter... I'm pretty relieved, I know he's a little bummed because he just wants to get it out of the way BUT we are both quite pleased he'll be here for everything. The next one comes up in Jan/Feb-ish, so we'll see about that. Nothing is EVER concrete in his line of work, whatever happens, we'll keep doing our thing and Camilla will be doing her thing... i.e. drooling all over everything. :)

Halloween is coming up!!! One of my most favorite holidays of all time and I don't think we'll be dressing up. I really wanted to be Team Rocket and Camilla be Meowth, but I'm not really at my desired weight for a cute costume this year I don't think... I'll probably just dress up Camilla. What should Camilla be?!

This post is ALL over the place, but that is how my brain works these days!  Incoming pics. :D

How gorgeous is she?!

Desoto says hi, Blogland!

Happy family!

Amused, yet confused.

Awwww.

Lol.

Fashion girl!

Ahahah I love her faces.

Spit bubbles!

This look says, "Yep. I'm cute."

Good night and lots of love everyone!!!

Blog tomorrow, I promise!!!! Been crazzzzzzzzzzzzy busy here! Well, I suppose not so much 'crazy', but definitely BUSY. Had like, 18 orders within the past two days, so I'm finally caught up on that. I will deeeeeeeeeeeeeefinitely post some stuff tomorrow!

In the meantime, here are some cute pic of the past few weeks!

Does she get cuter every day or what?!

So beautiful. <3 (the baby and the blanket!)

Oh that smiley face!

We went to the post office that day. :)

Isn't that sooo silly? Especially on him!

And you thought Desoto couldn't get anymore sillier...

:D my little lovey baby girl!

Those last two pictures of Desoto and Camilla are my current favorites. They are just so sweet and I LOVE them together. I can't wait for her to be grow up and interact with him more. I actually took a video, and maybe I'll upload it, but he's just sniffing and licking her, being very very gentle with her. It was so precious when I put her down for tummy time and he inched his way forwards, until he finally got to where she was, and then curled around her. I was waiting with bated breath, ready in a snap of a second to demand he get off the couch in case he came over in a hyper-spazzy manner, but he was slow and meticulous about where his paws went... and it was such a relief! I'm VERY strict with him -- he's allowed on any furniture, but he is NOT allowed to jump Free Willy style all over everything -- that I don't tolerate, and he has learned that Camilla is a precious little lady, and that he needs to be extra careful. Of course, this is just with me. With Josh, he's 100 miles a minute, Josh needs to be more strict. ;) 

It's also quite adorable and definitely strange, that he joins me in the bathroom when I'm giving her a bath. Maybe he thinks he has to be involved too, because he's the watch dog? Who knows! Lol.

More tomorrow, I promise!!! I just had to gush about Desoto's cuteness with Camilla today. :) She's very lucky to have him around to watch over her. 

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Been keeping busy, I'll probably make this another short post... or relatively short, I've got lots to do today! Not much in the news department anyway, but there are more pictures to share of course.

We've been taking Cam out and about the last few days. Our first trip with her out into the world that wasn't a doctor's office was at the mall! We lapped the mall a few times, stopped into a few stores--didn't really buy anything except some outfits and things for her. The first part of the trip she rode in the stroller (thank goodness we got an exceptional deal on our stroller, it's an awesome one!) and she started to get cranky so for the rest of our outing I carried her and she slept on my shoulder, ha. When she was awake she was pretty alert and she got many compliments, which was pretty neat. She's such a cute baby!

Then we went into Burlington Coat Factory which was a new addition to the mall here. Got her a Halloween outfit and just walked around eyeing baby things.

Then we went home! It was a positive experience, thank goodness. I think I'm at the point where I'm more comfortable with putting her in the car seat and driving around, so if I have to go to doc appointments by myself (which eventually I will have to) we will be fine. Phew! Calling myself a neurotic person is probably an understatement (hahaha) so it was just one of those things that has had me worried.

We even rode to the next town over and had some fun in Target and the Barnes and Noble. It's so weird that the mall here doesn't have a BOOKSTORE. It's just unreal to me. Shouldn't a bookstore be a must have?! But eh... we looked at books and things and Camilla got some more compliments. It was so funny, the lady behind us in line at the Barnes and Noble Cafe was like, "Oh my God, your baby is SO CUTE." She is cute! That's our girl! :)

She's growing like crazy! She's cooing, babbling, and smiling LOADS more. Even giggling. Josh is quite amazed and he gets a huge kick when she starts her babbling or smiling. Oh my god it's just so awesome! And she is so cute!!!! I can't wait 'til she's big enough for her cuter outfits!

Hmmm what else what else... been utilizing the crockpot a lot. Josh has been requesting this cheesy chicken rice thing I make a lot, been making at least 1 sale a day at my shop, Desoto's doing well and loves the crap out of the red futon (pretty sure he thinks it's his new bed), Oh! My friend Sandra is coming up for a visit in October, she's really awesome and I've known her since Kindergarten! It'll be fun to catch up as we haven't done so in years. She's really excited to meet everyone and help out. Hopefully with Camilla being a little bigger by then, we can have more time to do things ourselves as well. But we'll see. :) I know she wants to come up to see Camilla and help out and etc, babies are a handful, hope she knows what she's getting herself into! ;)

Whoa, I guess this post turned out bigger than I thought! Maybe I just blabber on too much.. probably... hehe. Anyway, picture time! I know it's everyone's favorite part. :)

Desoto learned a new trick!

Look at that stare!

Ha! Halloween prop.

Mmm, human foot.

Desoto came up to sneak some cuddling, Camilla has a BLAST kicking at him lol.

Then he brings me two toys.

Then he takes one toy from me and offers it to Camilla.

Awwwwww.

                                                  Desoto is so fashionable!