Photobomb time!

We always have our phone cameras out, but the last couple days was a wee bit more fun! We had some more stuff going on, the house is slowly (but surely) getting back to order and nice and cleaned, etc. Hung up some more Halloween decorations, and I'm quite pleased with how Camilla's nursery is coming together. I bought her a pretty and quite large heart decal with her name printed in cursive, but unfortunately it won't stick to these type of walls.. so we'll have to do something to remedy that. Yay! I'm bound determined to get this house super clean and better looking and organized... lol... by the time Sandra gets here. Thank goodness I have more time to complete such tasks! I get time in random bursts, but that's okay. Every spare second helps!

Time for pictures from the past couple of days. :)

UPDATE: This just in... oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh!!!!! I stepped away from Camilla's space-themed floor playmat thing and turned it on for her so I could go put some laundry away real quick, and I come back and she's rolled over onto her tummy! ALL BY HERSELF!!! I'm giggling hysterically as I type this, I'm just floored! She's been rolling over once in awhile when she's already on her tummy (for tummy time) but this is the first time she's rolled over from back to tummy! GASP!!!! And I missed it! Oh, but the fact that she's doing that now is crazy... I was like "OH MY GOSH CAMMY YOU ROLLED ONTO YOUR TUMMY?!?!" and she looked up at me all casually like, 'whatever, no big deal!'

Go Cammy!!! :D 

Eeek! Bats in the dining area! And spiders, cobwebs, a big ol' tarantula by the back door, and etc! While out thrifting I found that cute round table for only 24.99 so I bought it and surprised Josh with it! (Well, surprised him in the sense that I found us a table, he wrangled up the truck to go pick it up lol)

He's ALWAYS by her side!

I LOVE that bear! I found him thrifting as well. He looked so sad and lonely sitting by himself (and he had that antiquey bear look to him) and I HAD to have him...I mean... Camilla HAD to have him. He's wearing one of Camilla's hats that is still much too big for her. :)

Aren't they cute together?

One of her fave toys -- the light up singing/music chiming thingy.

Reaching for it. :)

FAVE FAVE FAVE!!!! I LOVE her eyes!

Desoto wants to join in Halloween festivities too!

PUMPKIN CARVING TIME!!! She can support herself for the most part if something is behind her, lol. But she does get cranky fast in that chair. Thanks dad for the hi-chair! :)

She's like uhhh what is that thing?

Peek a boo Desoto! Always the lurker.

Awwwww!

Adorable!!! She's gonna be a daddy's girl, I can tell haha.

Woke up from a nap.

See? Always lurking near her! Lol.

Oy, drama. Can I rant... pretty please?

Today was actually REALLY great, until Josh saw a returned package from someone.

First of all, it's very rude to return someone's package. Josh's exact words, and I have to agree. He said it was the ultimate "Fuck you", and while I can see that that is basically what it's saying, I just find it humorous that something so incredibly petty came from someone who is super religious and "Christian". I guess not all Christians take the high road, not all Christians try to be the best person they can be... even though, um, isn't that what being a Christian is all about? This is why I don't think it matters what sort of religion you are, as long as you have a good heart and try to be a good person.  But nope. That logic has clearly flown the coop. Along with reason, and wisdom. Sheesh, I wouldn't have cared if they donated the package themselves... petty, petty, petty.

It's just saddening (for me) because finding time to shower, or do dishes, or clean something is hard enough with everything that's going on here - but finding the time, energy, spending the money, and care wrapping up items and gifts that you think someone would really like, then finding time to trek out to the post office with a baby in tow.... that's not always as easy as it could be, and Josh... well, he's pretty ticked off. Holy cow, I thought he was going to explode. I love him for wanting to protect my feelings. Sure, my feelings were hurt, but it was more of me feeling absolutely stupid for putting the effort towards ungrateful people.

For one, I knew the returned package was coming, I told him I had received a heated phone call. (So heated, I couldn't even respond... I could only mutter "Um okay.") So wordlessly, I just shrugged as he handed the birthday package to me. After all, what could I say that could override a package that the mailman scribbled "REFUSED" all over?

I literally had to stop Josh from picking up the phone and voicing his opinions to the addressee. I'm trying to see it as a blessing. See, I can donate the items in the package to thrift stores, and to people who could really use/appreciate them. Then, I can step back away from the cataclysm, and just move on -- there is no point in wasting anymore heartache, worry, or further thoughts on that whole lot of rubbish. It's a sad situation, especially since 'reason' is literally nonesistent, but what can you do? My time is too precious to waste anymore on all of that, and I've honestly had enough, and so has Josh. I was really afraid of what he would say if he HAD called -- I will admit, I was curious, because someone needs to lay down the truth and LISTEN, and Josh is the most authoritative person I know. He could be president someday, and he would be one fine president. (but I digress). whenever I say something, apparently I'm just being "venomous", not truthful.

*sigh* I think the last time I saw him this angry was when I was nearing 8 months pregnant and my brother called me (from Washington, mind you) to ask me if I could download and burn a few seasons of Doctor Who, and to buy some Dr. Seuss Lorax stuff for some girl he liked. I was HUGELY PREGNANT and because I cared too damn much, I waddled my ass off all over the store to purchase some orange yarn (to crochet a damn Lorax doll, which wasn't that fabulous anyway, but that's besides the point lol) AND a stack of blank DVDs. I stayed up all night downloading and burning my brother about 10 or so discs of that show -- all for some girl's birthday that was in a few days. He couldn't call me a week or two in advance, thus I had to overpay on priority shipping for everything. It was so goddamn ridiculous. And I didn't even get a thank you. I'M the venomous one? Maybe I'm just tired of putting my all out for you (and him) and getting treated like dirt in return. A boy nearing legal adult age who asks his out of state super pregnant sister a favor... because he didn't think to save up his own money, or get a job, to do the things he does -- THAT is who you are raising. I still haven't gotten a sincere thank you to this day. Nope - I believe the last thing he said about me was that I was "unreasonable." Yeah... it's so not unreasonable to ask the sister who's not even in the same zipcode as you for a huge favor to be completed within 24 hours. *rolls eyes*

Geeze. There I go. Venting and ranting.  Oh venting and ranting feels so good, even though I know afterwards I'll feel guilty -- the totally same feeling of when I ate 78% of that delicious birthday cake!

I feel so bad for any of Josh's family who read this .... I'm just at my wits end! I really just don't know what to do! The only person I can really talk to about this is my sister, since we agree on every single damn point. And so do a hundred other people. Gosh. I talk to Josh about it all the time and he agrees too, he really wants to just call and lay it out straight, but I told him not to since... well, what the hell is the point? GRAHHHHHHHH!

.....ANYWAY!!!!!!! Today we got pumpkins! We'll probably carve them Sunday evening... and Sandra will be here on the 28th. I'm excited! A little nervous too, I haven't seen her in YEARS. Probably the last time I saw her was... hmmm, high school I believe. I've actually known her since Kindergarten, but she moved away before we hit 1st grade, but have always kept in touch/visited each other throughout our childhood. She's the one friend I've known the longest! Woohoo! We got some margarita mix and pina colada mix LOL, so maybe we'll have some girly gossipy fun times.

I have to clean!!!!!!! I should probably get off this blog-therapist hybrid and do something around the house... ;)

Sorry for all the ranting, but it did get a LOT off my chest and now I feel better. Pictures can be your reward! :)

Oh! I've posted this one before, this one I tweaked a bit in my photoshop program... I just wanted to lend some light/a more crisp view on her eyes. All the pictures are taken on my iphone, which isn't the best quality (really must find my camera charger) but I wanted to show that Camilla's eyes are dark, but a very pretty dark green-y color. :D What a doll!

Halloween's coming!

 My friend posted this on Facebook, and I quite like it:

It's so true. Prepare your kids, because you aren't going to be around forever. As much as I'd like to be on this earth forever, someday I won't be, and my sweet girl will be left to her own devices. I can only wonder of the big things her  future may possibly hold. :) When we hold her and play, we always wonder aloud as to what she'll do when she's older... a scary thought, because when she's older, we'll be much older! AHHH!! Even the rough days are easy to triumph over for one big reason: she is not going to be this small forever. She will be walking, talking, and off to school before we know it. It's probably weird to hear, but the crazy days where she's extra fussy, or nights when she'd rather yank my hair out instead of calming down for bedtime, well... I love those moments! It just means I get to spend more time with my little baby. 

And on a less sentimental note....

Yippee!!!! I'm pretty darn excited for Halloween. Ever the procrastinator, I wasn't really sure if we would be dressing up this year, but alas -- we are! It's official, we are going to be Team Rocket from Pokemon, the hilarious villains that aren't too good at being villains!

And little Camilla is going to be Meowth, their cat! (And Desoto will probably be Pikachu)

Josh's costume came first... purple wig and all! He tried it on, which I found quite amusing, but it looked pretty good! I actually think his costume is for a girl (lol), as it was a bit snug, but it'll work! My costume came on my birthday and it's near perfect! Now all I have to figure out is how I'm going to get my red wig to stand up like Jessie's, BUT I do have a game plan... hopefully I can pull it off, if not, I suppose I can always just wear the hair down. It won't be as fun though! I purchased Camilla a Meowth hat, though it's FAR too big. It's a very cute hat from a super nice seller on Etsy, but the problem is it's crocheted (or knitted?) and I'm not sure if there is a way I can shrink it, or not. I'm probably going to call Sue and see if there's any information up her sleeve for me to fix it lol, since she's the crafty queen. Now all we need are some pumpkins to carve and we'll be good! I went out and got some Halloween decorations and I hung up some bats and skeletons, etc. It's going to be so great! Josh did say he would need lots of vodka, or something similar, if he's to act the part of James... LOL. For anyone who hasn't seen the show, James is very effeminate. Yay! I'm so excited! I love Halloween!!!

Oh, my birthday was super! We just spent it at home, relaxing and whatnot. Josh took the day off and it was a very nice night in. He originally planned for us to go out to dinner somewhere but with Camilla, it's a little tricky lol. So he brought Olive Garden to me instead of us packing up to go. We did go to IHOP the other day and Cam was very well behaved (wish I could say the same for the other little kids there!) I know it's not going to be like that all the time, so when she is nice and behaved, I sure am grateful. Josh is so wonderful, he got me a griddle/grill hybrid pan that I've been wanting, this nice/big swiveling spice rack (yay!), and... actually quite a few domestic household things LOL. I told him I didn't need anything/much. But men! He also got me a birthday cake which I could not resist the temptation... sigh!

Camilla's 4 month was a few days ago and she did fantastic! The doctor went over all that  she should be doing by this age and she scored perfect for all of them. When the doctor listened to her heartbeat, Camilla grabbed her I.D. tags and the doc said, "Well, she's definitely curious! That's a huge plus!" Woohoo! It was so hard watching her get her shots though, the three she got in her legs-- ouch! She grasped my fingers so hard, and she stared at me all the while crying, thinking about it is making me sad... :( but she's a good baby, and she was fine right afterwards, although a bit grumbly. Everyone thinks she is so adorable; a couple ladies in the waiting room were talking to her and asking her if she got ouchies today, and Camilla grumbled and gurgled back to them. So funny! She is definitely a talker, even to Desoto... who has become a nanny dog. I don't think he is capable of walking by her sleeper without poking his nose in there. I wonder if he's just seeing how she's doing, or what. I know I've posted this picture already but... I can't help myself! 

Her expression is just so silly. I have a feeling they are going to be partners in crime someday. And she's  going to be the perpetrator.

 

 Oh look at her adorable little face and HUGE eyes! This was after a bath. Squeaky clean and super cute!I think it's time for more adorable pictures....

Oh my word, I love this cutie pie.

I decided to delete the last blog. There really is no need to put something like that on here, so sorry if I offended anyone. It's just very upsetting watching someone related to you, simply tread in laziness and apathy, because I know (and my sister, and pretty much EVERYONE else who knows of the situation) know, that they can do so much better. The fact that nobody is doing anything about it because of their laundry list of denial and excuses, doesn't matter. He shouldn't have to "depend" on anyone when he is an adult -- when you are an adult, you are responsible for your own actions. Hell, even a teenager should be responsible for their own actions. I just wish SOMETHING could be done about it, and using religion as an excuse, and God as a beacon for wish-prayers (like wishing for my mother to find a rich man to take care of her... she has a job, she's on her own, she's doing fine) is silly. I don't think anyone should treat God like that, even if I'm not religious, that is not what he is there for... if anything, if you have faith, maybe the religious should be praying for a better world. One where children in other countries aren't starving, or where they have the medications available to help their needs, where education is available to them. And here, we have a teenager who refuses to eat because he doesn't care, screwing his education up by not caring nor trying, and not even taking his epilepsy medicine because people are teaching him to not trust doctors. It's so sad, and I feel so burdened by this. I don't want him to grow up to be a bum.  I don't want to see him hurting as an adult, because everyone lets him do whatever he wants, whenever he wants as a teenager. That's all. And yes, he did talk back to his gym teacher. The gym teacher told everyone to do push ups and your pride and joy REFUSED to follow along, so he made him run laps. Then you laugh and chuckle saying, wow he can run laps and jump hurdles! That's not something to be proud of... honestly, he should've just done push ups like the rest of the class. He's not dancing to the beat of his own drum, refusing to do push ups with everyone else is just plain ol' obnoxiousness. I wish I had a 2000 mile long arm so I could slap some sense into him. Lol.

Anyway. Besides feeling like total crap that all this madness is going on in my family, things have been good over here. Camilla is interacting with her toys! Yay! We went on an evening trip to the store last night to get her more toys, and she LOVES this litte rattle ball and light up touch toy. Gosh she's so adorable, we love her so much!!!! She's definitely been staring at our food when me or Josh eat, even staring at Desoto when he's chewing his bones lol, so when she hits 4 months I will probably start her on some baby foods. All the recalls on baby food lately have me a bit paranoid, ha, so I'll probably just conjure up some myself with the blender. I was eating some avocada yesterday and gave her a couple tastes... and her expressions were hilarious! She is quite the expressive baby. :)

Hmmm what else?! Josh had a 4 day weekend so we had a lot of fun just hanging out. We took our weekend trip to the mall and that's probably my favorite day of the week. Cam was in her panda leggings and the sales people in the department and movie stores cooed over her. She's such a popular little lady! Oh I suppose another new thing, I'm on the Atkins diet. It's working! It's basically no carb/no sugar the first two weeks, then you slowly add carbs and sugars later on. I lost 5lbs the first week, and I weighed myself today and lost another pound. Hopefully it keeps going like that lol. I read that the first two weeks are when it really hits you, and it'll probably slow down afterwards. It's damn hard though! Grocery shopping is challenging actually having to read and study labels. Phew. But the payout will be worth it! Josh isn't on it, so it's hard watching him eat all the good stuff! Lol. Especially at the mall.. I was like oh god droooooolllll at everything in the food court. And all the coffee places! *sigh* But I must keep trudging on!

Picture time!! (oh and I found that one baby pic of Josh that reminds me of Cam, and I saw some very cute photos of his parents back in the day... Sue, you are a hottie! Dennis is so lucky!)

Making this one quick...

It's picture time!